As I sit here and write this I see my husband playing his video game, my baby girl sound asleep, and my little christmas tree all lit up. And then when I look further into it I see the roof over my head, the bed that I'm sitting on, and the bottled water I have sitting next to me. SO much to be thankful for right? I think that we lose site of our blessings more than we even realize.
My day today has been a roller coaster. Six hours ago if you would have asked me what my blessings where I would have thought about it for two seconds and simply said... nothing. Today has been one of the most challenging days that I have had as a wife, mother and follower of Christ. Maybe its because it's the holiday season and I'm over a thousand miles away from "my" family. Maybe because my daughter is sick and cranky. Maybe because I have been searching for an apartment for what seems like forever and when we FINALLY find one that is "perfect" my husband tells me that God does not want us there. Or maybe its just because I have been a little bit selfish and let my emotions get the best of me. Bottom line I have not been what God calls me to be. See as a believer the Bible tells me that I'm to summit to my husband because HE is the leader of our household. It also calls me to love others as Christ loved me. And It also tells me to not be blinded by the darkness that satan can throw at me. If I had a report card for today I would have a big fat F.
Today as I asked God WHY he laid this on my heart:
It's not that I don't give you more than you can handle Christine. I give you BEYOND what you can handle so you have no choice but to rely on my strength. There is a reason you are not the leader of your home. There is a reason you are not near your family right now. And there is also a reason I did not want you living in that apartment. If you try to control everything in your life and rely on your own strength you will fail. I'm here to carry you!
WOW! Even typing that is a blessing in its self. I think it is so amazing that no death, circumstance, living situation, addiction, or dead season in our lives can ever make God stop loving us!
"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8:38-39
Just another WOW! The Creator of this earth will love us no matter what you have come from or what you may begin to face in the future. I encourage everyone that is reading this to look around and count your blessings and maybe even your hardships and read that verse one more time. Death CAN'T. Demons CAN'T. The past or future CAN'T. Depth CAN'T. Nothing in this world can separate us from the LOVE of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
We are loved through every circumstance and that alone will get me through any other day that is just not going the way that I would like it to.
What is it that you need God's love in? He tells us that through it all his love is HERE!
Thank you Jesus!!
